Eliud Kipchoge made me cry

I haven’t been running in a very long time, my last post talks about that and I might write an update soon. I still follow the sport though; I watch marathons and documentaries and videos about runners and running.

And of course, I follow Eliud Kipchoge. The most amazing runner on the planet.

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Time flies when you’re not having fun

Wow. It’s been almost two years since my last post. I hadn’t realized it has been that long. It’s definitely time for an update!

You’re probably aware I’ve been struggling with illness, physical and mental, over the past number of years. My recovery has been excruciatingly slow and painful.

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Pain, pain, go away

I can’t remember a time that I wasn’t in pain.

When I was in my early teens, I was karate flipped over someone’s shoulder as a joke. It turned out to be a bad joke; I was knocked unconscious and taken to A&E. It turns out that I had hyper-extended my neck, tore up some muscles in my back and chipped a vertebrae.

I’ve been in chronic pain ever since. The level of pain varies. Sometimes it’s a dull ache between my shoulder blades. Sometimes the pain is so intense it radiates outwards until I wonder how anyone standing next to me can’t feel it too. And twice, the pain has been so bad I’ve been nearly paralyzed with it. My spine has grown into the wrong alignment but no amount of treatment has helped; and believe me I have tried nearly everything. My back always hurts.

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It’s ok to not be ok

I am not ok.

We are all made up of a mind, body and spirit. When one gets broken, the others can be a part of what helps lift a person back up again. But when all three come under pressure, sustained and prolonged pressure, then break all at once…like Humpty Dumpty it seems impossible that the mind, body and spirit can be put back together again.

I’m in that place right now. And while I know it’s ok to not be ok, I’m currently getting the help I need to get out of it. But in between appointments, and specialists and treatment and medication, there are things I have to take responsibility for and begin to change in order to be whole again.

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Are you gonna eat that?

I just posted my third video log, talking about my attitude towards food (particularly as a runner) and inviting you to help keep me accountable.

Are you gonna eat that?

In other news, I am working on my next running post about my recent gait analysis and will post that tomorrow. It was a fascinating experience!