I’m This Fat Girl Runs….AMA!

Tomorrow will be 4 weeks until my first marathon. I’ve had an amazing year so far of preparing and training and a big part of what’s helping get to the starting line is the community of runners on twitter.  I really enjoy interacting with you all; asking questions, getting advice and giving encouragement.

I realised lately that mostly I talk about running, and occasionally a band or gig I’m going to. So I thought what better way for my running friends to get to know me a little better than to do an AMA style blog post.  I got a lot of great questions so I’m going to answer them here.  I hope you enjoy the post!

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Upcoming AMA blog post!

This Sunday I will be posting an AMA style blog post.  Ask your running or non-running questions in the comments below and I’ll answer them then!


When confidence gets shotted*

When I was a kid I went on a fairground ride with my sister. I can’t remember how old I was, maybe 12 or maybe younger. The ride was called The Zipper and from the ground it looked like a lot of fun.  There were these buckets spinning around this long oval wheel which was also spinning and the whole thing didn’t look too bad. I was tall enough to ride it and my sister was older than me so into a bucket we hopped.

It wasn’t fun; it was terrifying. I was terrified. We were being spun around and around and up and down at the same time and it wasn’t stopping, it just wasn’t stopping. The bucket spun around without warning and without any rhyme or reason. It flipped every which way while spinning around and around. The sky and the ground rushing towards and away from me, the screams of other people on the ride. It was terrifying. It seemed to go on forever. I screamed and screamed for the ride to stop but of course the only person who heard me was my sister and she couldn’t do anything about it.  I don’t remember getting off the ride but apparently I was crying and I yelled at the ride operator because he didn’t stop the ride. I was so scared and upset at being so scared.

What scared me the most was the complete and utter lack of control I had. Fair rides were never the same for me after that!

I’m sharing this story because it’s the only way I can describe what happens to my thoughts sometimes. It’s like my brain hops on a certain thought bucket and then this thought just spins around and around in my mind, always spinning, this way and that with no control. Sometimes I can take hold of these thoughts and stop the ride, other times I just can’t. Sometimes the thoughts are benign, sometimes it’s an idea or a question or a plan. Other times, it’s a dark, nasty and negative thought; usually about myself.

What does this have to do with running? Today; everything.

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All my bags are packed, I’m ready to go….run my first half marathon!

If you haven’t already heard, I’m running my first half marathon this Sunday tomorrow! It’s the Rock ‘n’ Roll Half Marathon here in Dublin.

This is rather a big milestone for me in terms of races. The longest race I’ve done so far is 10k so a half marathon is a big step upwards! My bags are packed, my fuel bag and my post-race bag that is. So I think…I’m ready to go!

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I love the smell of a PB in the morning! Irish Runner 5 mile race report

After the success of my 10k PB earlier this month, I felt more anxious than I should have about today’s Irish Runner 5 mile race. I just didn’t want to get too confident and then have things go badly; because things DO go badly sometimes, I wanted to be prepared for that. I wavered between being hopeful for a good race and being worried it would be a bad one! This race was a big deal for me, being the first race in the Dublin Marathon Race Series it made training for the marathon that much more official in my mind.

Anyway, I gradually got myself into a mindset that ‘what will be will be’ and focused on my training and making sure I hit my distances, especially the long runs. Given that I’m currently running 9 mile LSRs, a 5 mile race really shouldn’t be a problem.

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Marathon Training update!

At the beginning of April I started training for my first marathon.  It’s taking place on the 26th of October so I’m giving myself loads of time to train for it. I thought it might be good to post a little update to let you know where I’m at, how I’m training and what my weekly training routine looks like.

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The difference a year makes! VHI Mini Marathon Race Report

Yesterday I ran the VHI Women’s Mini Marathon, an annual 10k race that takes place here in Dublin. This is the second time I’ve run this race, and was the first big race in my Dublin Marathon training plan.

In the lead up to the race I was battling a lot of inner negativity, questioning my abilities and my goals and generally berating myself for daring to run. Luckily I recognised what I was doing to myself and spent a week trying to drag myself out of that negative place and into my usual confident self. I’m happy to say I’m winning that battle, but on the eve of the race I wondered if I had started to win it too late.  Would all that negativity I poured out on myself affect how I ran it?

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Dancing with the demons in my mind

We are the heroes of our time but we’re dancing with the demons in our minds.” from ‘Heroes’ performed by Måns Zelmerlöw

I am the meanest person I know. Don’t believe me? Well you should.

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Whose voice are you going to listen to?

I’ve learned a lot of really great lessons from running. Things like learning to push myself, learning to rest properly, learning to trust people and learning to have discipline. The biggest lesson I’ve learned however, is learning to listen to the right voices, and ignore the wrong ones. Continue reading


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